Why am I so lonely?

I've been trying to sleep for about two hours. Maybe more. I don't know why I just can't.. I'm so tired.. I feel lonely. So incredibly lonely, and I have no idea why. I have everything you can ask for, right?

I know that I could call someone. I could call Him, tell him that I'm lonely and cold.. and he would come running.. To keep me company in bed. If I wanted. All I have to do is say the words. But that's not what I want.. I want something else. But why do I still feel lonely? I could have someone here, right now... Having someone near me, touching me. But I'm not sure it would help.

I have tons of friends. I thought about it, I have at least two who I could talk to, even in the middle of the night if I wanted. And a lot more to be with in the morning. If I wanted. So why won't I call? I don't know, but I'm not sure it would help.

Right now I'm sitting here in only my quilt.. I really should try to get some sleep. But I'm not sure .......